I made stuff

Okay! October has drawn to a close and now I get to tell you what amazing things I did this month. You know me - overachiever :) I exceeded a couple of my goals. I crafted twice and made 2 recipes. I am getting so wild in my old age. Constantly pushing the envelope...

I made a wreath. I am actually proud of it. My mom came over and said "the wreath on your door looks just like you" - meaning = how cool that you found a wreath at Target that suited you so well. It was so fun to say it looks like me because I made it! Wreath meet my friends. Friends meet my wreath.

You gasped with amazement at the beauty didn't you? I should probably start taking orders.

I also made one of those wine cork boards (example below), I obviously drink a lot of wine because I still have a lot of corks left. So 2 things to be proud of.

Ok on to the kitchen...... I made 2 really yummy recipes. I made these for a breakfast meeting. They were delish. The really fun thing is I froze a pan so I could pull them out and heat them up throughout the week so I could have a yummy healthy breakfast. I tweaked the recipe a bit too. I did cheddar, added minced garlic, and cut the eggs with egg whites :)

I also made these amazing little treats for my bible study...there were none left. I was pissed.

Lay the pretzels on a cookie sheet. Top each pretzel with an unwrapped Rolo candy. Bake in the oven at 250*F for 4-5 minutes (no longer).When you remove them from the oven, the Rolo will still be in the same shape as when it went in the oven. Place a pecan half on top of the Rolo and press down a bit. Top each of the Rolo with one pecan half. Place the entire baking sheet in the freezer for about 5-7 minutes to allow the Rolo to cool. They are like crack.

Ok on to the learning! I got to go to a fancy shmancy wine tasting and I learned what my favorite wine is....Its a barbaresco :) If you want to know about it, click the link. It is yummmmmmmmy. I want it all the time now.

Ok, so that was me in October. I had so much fun doing and tasting all of these things. I feel like I have spent so much time in my life sitting around (literally) shoulda coulda woudaing during commercial breaks. No mas!!!!! Watch out! I am a doer.

Or A Woman Like You

I have been thinking a lot about the kind of woman I am and the kind I want to be. I love Ray Lamontagne's song lyric "A 9 pound hammer or a woman like you. Either one of them things will do.". I love the grizzleness of a man having to choose between a woman or a hammer! I want to be that woman - and I think I am. I just don't trust that all the time or acknowledge that someone else might be able to know that. So thus I am challenging my self to challenge myself. I want to contribute more to life (i.e - the amount of TV I watch is not a contribution). So I am commiting to finding out these things I am hiding. I am going to do these 3 things every month to push myself.

1. Create something

2. Cook something

3. Learn something

And damn it after all of that if I don't feel more free to be myself and embrace myself - then why should anyone else? I have so many wonderful people in my life who love me and are confident in me and I need to be as well!

I fear being criticized. I hate that. I want to not give a shit what people think of me. Even now I am wondering if anyone reading this will be judgey because I said give a shit. Its ok if I fail at something, its ok if I am wrong. It is ok if I am silly, inappropriate, or weak sometimes. I need to be fearless about these things because I think they are lovely parts of me that I sometime feel shame about. I want to feel joy in these parts of me. I think that embracing the parts of us that scare us can only unleash exciting and creative things from us. Healing, love, beauty, change, experience, forgiveness and fun....

So here goes....